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Post by Captain Ally on Jan 21, 2024 0:00:43 GMT -6
I'm not that old. And yet I get moments where I'm like, this is ending. Something is not going to happen again, I'm not sure what. But it's a nagging feeling in the back of my mind.
I was watching a really beautiful video two days ago where someone asked, who made the doot doot gif? The one where a skull head is holding a trumpet, and it's become synonymous with that sound. He didn't question who made the original art, because what this youtuber found out was that it was an image first that someone took and created into a gif. Throughout his search that spanned many long months, it takes him all the way back to 1999. On someone's personal website they've created hundreds of gifs that share their passion and love for their hobby. This person was a mom, a wife, and a restuarant owner. She likely adopted the internet as soon as it was available because her website just embodies the style at the time. Personal posts, fun colors, and many pages and sections. Her friends are mentioned so many times. Once he got a name, he figured since the video was going to be published it might be nice to get a comment from the author herself. What happened to be something that I clicked on out of passing interest, turned out to be such an emotional experience. This lady likely didn't know the impact that she made across the internet, and neither did her family members. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I felt happy that there was such a story tied to something that's been spread everywhere. The doot doot skeleton was actually called jazzy skeleton. He even won an award! I wish she was still alive when this creator had finished his video. However she passed in 2020. I kind of want that recognition. Like, my name carries a little weight to it. Not that I want celebrity status or anything (because I think that level of fame is so damaging). I kind of just want more people to be like, "oh you know queen_ally/qweeeny/ally? I've heard of them too!". There are splatoon creators that get that, or even some of my friends. I think they're cool, I want to be cool too.
I think I struggle being content, and living life. I feel so removed from ten or so years ago (for maybe good reasons). I would go and do things. Now I feel aprehensive, and scared. Whether it's spending time for me, or covid, or how dangerous or expensive it is to be outside of the house. Not like I'll get murdered for going and grabbing dinner or something. But I continue hearing about people being in danger at malls, schools, stores, even driving near their home. I want to hold onto time right now for some reason. When I was crying the most, it would be eating dinner, or the time in late afternoon before it started to become evening. That is the worst point of the day for me still. Right now it's 12:07am and I'm trying to wind down. My heart is beating a little fast, I feel as if I cannot calm down, and maybe I'm this close to crying about something. Writing is like a desperate measure to stop that. In the last few months I've watched a quite a few videos of creators on youtube talking about their retirements. And then I go, has it really been that long? Long enough that you're getting off of this path and choosing to stop or do something else? I feel like my lifetime looks like a burden in my eyes (burden is not the word that I'm looking for, but I mean that it's a lot to handle). Once I calm down, all of a sudden I think about, well what do I do when I'm around 50 years old? or what happens when I get into my sixties, seventies, eighties...I'm terrified. And I think about how my parents don't think like this, and neither does my sister. Why did I get the mental illnesses.
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Post by Captain Ally on Feb 12, 2024 1:31:52 GMT -6
here's to another night that I don't feel good
I spent a long time with my mom today, we were shopping and I was awake at a decent time in the morning. We came home, prepped appetizers, and made dinner. I should be satisfied. Yet. my stomach is in knots. I was looking forward to grinding salmon run tonight but when it came time to play all I could think about was how much I wanted to put down the game. my friend invited me to play a few games with them and it made me annoyed. Not that they reached out, I just felt like I did not want to be doing this right now.
then it doesn't help that I log onto twitter after finishing my dinner, and I see that more innocent people were murdered in Gaza. These people were told my Israel to go the border between the strip and egypt and that they will be safe. it wasn't I think about how I complain about aspects of my life and there are people who cannot hold onto their families or homes.
I watch videos from people on youtube and they casually slip in how they miss parents, or losing them was so sudden. This youtuber that I like now who goes by the name Peter Santenello uploaded his most recent video yesterday and one of the events was how he met a woman at one of the few stores left in town and he mentioned how the balloons must be for a nice occasion. She rebukes him and says that she made this order before her mother passed away. She was just shy of being 80 years old. After some conversation peter says how it was wonderful that this lady was able to spend the last years of her mother's life with her, and that he didn't have that opportunity because his own dad developed brain cancer, and only lived for a few months afterwards. Before his father passed, he rushed onto an airplane to get to the hospital and he died in his arms. I think I would heal by not coming into contact with this content but it's all around us. I can't turn my brain off when someone talks about how they miss loved ones (actually I shouldn't avoid it). Hell I think about family members all of the time myself. The unfortunate part in my life is that I'm the kid of two people who were the babies in their families. My parents tell me and my sister stories all the time how they would be told when a party was happening and there was no question whether or not you show up, it was an expectation. Some nights I almost feel jealous. It's like my maternal grandparents each had large families and what's left is my grandpa's two sisters and my grandmother. There were many people that I didn't get the opportunity to make a connection with. That's why I feel like crying when it turns out an aunt had a few photos of me in a picture album she looked at often. Or I'm involved (even thought I might have been less than five years old) in some family stories. Like, they knew of me, but I didn't get the chance to form a memory before they left us The most tragic thing that I think of a lot is that my paternal grandmother seen me two weeks before she passed. I was born august 31st, and not long after that was when she left this world. My dad should have been feeling nothing but joy, however he lost his mom while he was barely in his thirties. I think it's no excuse when he gets mean, but sometimes I feel bad. Maybe I would be mean and bitter if my mom left me at that age too.
that's why I get hung up about my life and the years moving forward. I want both of my parents to reach their eighties too. I also kind of wish I had my innocence back. Before 2022 I think I was in blissful ignorance of life. Nothing was in my face yet like it is now. I don't know how to explain it, but I just didn't think like this years ago where I need to write and write. I didn't get hung up about something I can't control. If I seen my grandmother once in a while, that was okay. If I stayed in my room for too many hours, then that was okay. Now I get this nasty guilty feeling for enjoying my hobby. Some part of me feels rude, or bad if I want to sit in my room. there is a small window in the day where I go, maybe it would be nice to do this again. It's like a flip was switched, but as soon I realize it, then it's off again. The maybe nice in particular could be trying to hang out with a friend. Going outside by myself. Maybe taking a different job. I feel bad if I keep complaining at my mom, because she then asks, well what job? or when do you want to work a job. And I haven't thought that far ahead. I don't know what I want to do. I miss performing with music, and I miss being outside with someone else. My last two friends both moved away. One in particular moved on from our friendship. Being independant looks terrifying. Or just thinking only for myself. I have splatoon friends right now who are five years younger than me that talk about their next big goals being that they want to be moved out of their parents houses and doing major activities. It makes me feel sick to my stomach, even though I know that's the most basic goal for people.
something else that I think about too much about is that when I'm moved out, and working a job that pays for rent, utilities, gas, and food. When is there time to spend with your loved ones? How do you compartmentalize your week, months, or years so that you're not neglecting relationships that matter. I get scared that with my ADHD, I'm gonna let too much time pass and regret it. I brought it up with my mom that I love going out on the weekend and going shopping with her, that I don't want it to end. And she always answers back that it won't end, but how do I know that. I want to have the same time that she got with my grandma. sometimes I think, I don't want my life to change at all. Being with my mom is the most comforting place in the world. Being home is what I want. the rest of my life is going to be so difficult. I can't even bring myself to get enough motivation to reach the starting line. what mental illness is this, it's so cruel.
in truth I feel like I put up a front to my family every day. Like I said earlier, I was with my mom all day. Don't you think if it were anyone else they would be content and happy? Because that's what I want to do. I don't want to waste my day alone. But then when I get out, or if I stay home and spend my time sitting chatting wuth my mom. I think about how I want to be in my room. so I wait, and then 11pm to midnight rolls around and she heads to bed. Once I get in my room, which is where I was thinking so much about. I start to think about what I didn't do during the day. And I feel bad and avoid going to bed. Am I just suffering from loneliness and anxiety. Is it my hypothyroidism, is it because I'm overweight? I want an answer. This is just difficult. It's so hard to deal with.
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Post by Captain Ally on Feb 13, 2024 4:01:40 GMT -6
I log onto twitter and I see the same things circulating. It's people fighting for or against the way billionaires/celebrities are worshipped. And then I feel like I'm going insane because there are people that are pro-israel. I think to myself, are we not seeing the same content? How are these people existing without knowing that there are over 12,000 dead children. After the superbowl the most harrowing piece of media I witnessed was of a twelve year old girl photographed with her legs blown off and her lifeless body was dangling from the ceiling. How much more depraved can this get. All I see from IDF soldiers is them rummaging through the sock drawers of palestinian women. They do photo ops, and staged videos. Their outfits are clean, their hair is contained neatly, and they don't look as if they've done anything. Which I think speaks more to how deadly the bombing has been on the gaza population. There are assholes who walk around to spread more propaganda because they didn't do anything themselves.
During the superbowl all I seen was how people were cheering about seeing their favorite actors, singers, influencers, and other rich people on screen. I feel like pointing out someone like taylor swift taking a 13 minute jet ride being bad, shouldn't be made out to be some weird controversy. Normal people do not get into a private plane just so they can get across a state. I feel crazy asking about whether or not she knows she can take a car ride. It's like, propping her up as some amazing woman shouldn't be happening. We don't know her. Actually my biggest gripe with her is that she's got this world tour going on, and yet there has been radio silence about what her views on the genocide is. Do you know that if she said she was pro-palestine that her fanbase could change the world. That is unfortunately how much pull she has over others. I think it's very cowardly that she has said nothing if that impacts her current contracts. To me that is all I need to know about her. Fuck these assholes. To be come a billionaire it's more than pulling yourself up by the bootstraps. It's about projects and plans being set in motion sometimes before you were even born. Since I brought up taylor swift. She's being fed money from fans that would buy any merchandise she sells. Her father signed her onto a label that he owns. All of her money gets recylced and feeds into her net worth. This isn't a millenial that has some cutesy cozy home in the burbs. She's a white woman who continues a cycle that was started before our lifetimes.
I don't understand why rich people get reverred as if they are immediately better human beings. They are fucking dumb as rocks. When they start their day, it's only about a few decisions they make. For the rest of us we are put into finnancial ruin if even one aspect of our lives is negatively impacted.
Once again I think it's very telling how the majority are tight lipped about their political stances. People on the right side of history get silenced and lose their jobs but these people sit inside their mansions and enjoy the labors of people less fortunate. Our general life expectancy went down because of how much stress it takes to work until you retire. In this country I would say at least 75% of people do not get to enjoy their retirement, something that was promised to us as soon as we complete our higer education.
I feel just insane. I'm going crazy every day. how can such vile and rotten human beings still exist.
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Post by Captain Ally on Feb 25, 2024 5:12:27 GMT -6
I'm feeling anxiety again tonight. I don't know, it's like, I want to play splatoon and be a good player. But then I also feel like that takes away a lot of time if I want to play a weekend of a special salmon run rotation, or splatfest.
I struggle so much with how I spend my time. My mom stays at her job for long hours lately, I still feel awkward talking to my dad, and my sister has her whole world revolve around her boyfriend. When my mom comes home she wants to chat, and I do most of the time with her. But then like tonight, I wanted to play out the rotation a little longer so after dinner I went back up to my room to join my squad. And now I'm like, is that wrong of me. Was it also bad on Friday when I woke up early to play the same rotation for six hours as well? To be fair I was originally only going to play six hours on Friday and four hours today. But everyone kinda had time set aside already for this weekend so it was like, why not continue playing longer I could tell L was getting tired, C was past his bedtime, and R had stayed awake for too long anyways. When B joined I felt a little bit of pressure because he's so well known in the community so I played worse actually. And also A joined just because they could. They really just wanted to play the DLC so they never asked to join again afterwards lmao. This past weekend I really felt like such an inferior player, I couldn't make an easy 200 game let alone 220+ happen. There was someone else who subbed in for me while I was late getting home and they hit a 237 in one of the first few games. That just tells me how bad I'm doing. I don't know why it seems like I've hit a wall but it's pretty clear.
I feel like my next goals should be learning to use specials at better times and being more flexible around each map. As crazy as it sounds, I never improved in those areas this whole time. For example about the last two days. Overfishing is about a mastery of the map and techniques to push the score higher. I feel like I do very well in general but I cave under pressure when the basket area gets busier than I can handle, or there was a stinger spawn that I missed in the corner and no one else had time to cover that either. I noticed my friend R would turn around and grab flyfish or stingers on a dime and as a result it allowed the rest of us to collect quota easier and deal with threats faster. I think in splatoon 2 I used to play better because the known techniques made it easier to get better in a certain way. Such as don't waste your specials because something might happen that you can't deal with later in the game. Saving your special meant more since movement was so linear. Or there was the wide known advice such as don't camp shore areas because we can only carry one egg at a time. So as a result I would clear a stinger, or flyfish and then dip. I don't think I ever thought too deeply about how that would make aggro from eels, drizzlers, scrappers, or steelheads turn onto me. And now in splatoon 3 there are also dolphins, sticks, and big shots to think about. After every rotation it's like, I know I need to improve. Which is why I go into freelance so much. Where else is better practice if not in freelance where a wide variety of skill and players are at. But I think now it's hindering me so much. I have joined people who I think are solid players, and I feel as if it's such a let down when I don't play well with them. Someone was chatting with me one time, and I don't think there are people below my skills who seek me out because they want an easy game. That's me doing it unknowingly to other people. I remember when I first joined Juuree and I feel as if she thought this is not who I thought this person was. This weekend playing with C, L, and R should have been an easy and good time. But I was just not up to their levels.
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Post by Captain Ally on Mar 12, 2024 1:38:42 GMT -6
since the pandemic I've always sort of felt at odds with other people who were diagnosed with ADHD. Or even people who suspect they have it.
For me I was formally diagnosed when I was a toddler. It was as a result of my brother needing more attention since he was sick as a newborn (which caused him to start to talk much later than other toddlers his age). My ADHD was caught because it was also as a result of me having what is called absence seizures. This is a condition where a child or someone is staring for an extended period of time (usually about 15 seconds). You can make whatever noise, or attempt to grab their attention. But every effort will fail until the seizure is over with. I was treated until a new doctor decided I was okay. This is something that scares me a little bit occasionally but I try not to mull over those thoughts. I haven't asked in a long time, but I remember I used to attend a preschool that specialized in helping special needs children, since I guess I was considered one. They would test my motor skills a lot I think, such as picking pennies out of blue putty.
Anyways, for me, ADHD has only ever posed a problem when I don't want to focus on something. This could be classroom work, or if I'm in a conversation and I would love nothing more than to not be present. Something else is like when I want to put off taking a shower, or going to the bathroom. When I hear about adults who start a task, and then walk away and leave the old task alone. I just can't relate to them. It's like, how is your attention so poor that you've left milk to rot on a counter to go do something else? Or when someone is extremely hyper. I always second guess and wonder if they're attributing some other personality quirk because they want to be relatable? I just seen a twitter post this afternoon about a girl that blamed being adhd on wanting to nap in the middle of the afternoon. And it's like, that's actually such a basic human desire. You want to relax and nap around 3pm because everyone gets tired around that time as well.
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Post by Captain Ally on Mar 18, 2024 1:21:39 GMT -6
as upset as I feel with my extended family. My aunts and uncles only ever have interesting tales to share. It's like random lore they drop. You hear the same stories because that's what they want to tell, and then comes the moment of clarity and we've got a new little story. Like, my uncle ("bad influence" XD ) worked on the railroads for his entire career. He would spend from sun up to sun down either fixing tracks, managing the workers, or what have you. Something I found facinating is that he was a child from the city turned hill billy. I think had my grandparents stayed alive longer, he would have never moved to a more remote location. We're talking Bridgeport which was practically city as it gets all the way to Beecher which is in kinda the country side of illinois. Think small town, few restaurants or retail spaces.
My dad was born 14 years after he was. So it's like, he's a teenager while my dad is a baby. Of course they are in different stages of life. I have a feeling that my dad never really came to an understanding with him for the longest time. Hell I think I talked about it in another post about the fight to end all fights. It took them at least ten years to make up with each other.
I can't remember my original point. But I'm watching this youtuber called Peter Santenello and he uploaded a video where he was talking with an older gentlemen who lives in what is called Cajun Country (lousiana). This man is probably only a few years older than my uncle and he's talking about how it took electricity and air conditioning a long time to reach them. It was about 1954 and 1962. Just thinking about that was so mind boggling to me. This older man comments about how he doesn't miss going to sleep in the summer months where it was just way too hot. Basically falling asleep meant that exhaustion finally took you. It just made me think about how I will view this time in my life 50 years from now. What is going to be a huge leap in my eyes that I would say we couldn't live without.
I'm watching this video and I had this thought that as humans we need to find a better way for our current technology to coexist with a life in nature. The man from the video was also talking about how he only seen life as going up when he was the same age as his grandchildren (probably teens to 20's). However after the drug epidemic that has started in the 90's. And just being able to watch life move on...in his opinion everything is getting worse. It's really sad, but I have to agree. Even though I'm 25 which is mostly like three quarters of his age. Since 2016 I've seen such a major shift in the way people act, and how bad capitalism has gotten. The public is getting beaten down on, rather than our government making major improvements to our way of life. I think it's insulting that they want to ban TikTok. When actually we need help with childcare, education, housing, food, and transportation. There is a very very long list of social programs we need. I think it's fucking rude when people talk trash about others who are on stamps, or social security. And I'm like, everyone needs as much help as they can get. instead of being pitted against one another, we should be standing with each other. He made allusions to the fact that we could go so far backwards that running water becomes a luxury not a right again. Or gas/electric, food, etc. Which is scary, but it could happen.
some nights I'm kept awake because I get scared thinking of my own morality. If you're on social media long enough you feel like an old hag at the young age of 22. How do you think I feel at 25. It's like I'm aging out of fun. One day you're supposed to flip a switch and then you have three kids, a mortgage, and you're invested in the local politics. watching this video makes me think being old doesn't get any different. it's a little comforting :) these old guys were walking on one of their friends property and they're just having a grand old time. Laughing about their house insurance getting cancelled, or drinking a beer when maybe they shouldn't have one XD
OMG HHAHA one of the old guys just made a dig at biden. he was like, I don't remember if I was teaching in 1909 and the group is like nahh. And then his friend says, listen when you get to the day that you can't tell what year it is anymore I'll tell you what you were doing. And then he goes, listen biden is there now. LOL I love this group god I have never felt so attached to people in my life. Another funny moment happened where they were talking about how the cajuns left nova scotia. One way was they traveled down the East Coast down to Louisiana, and then the other way they traveled was down the great mississippi. The story goes is that since they ate sea food, all of the lobsters loved them so much that when they were leaving they started crawling after them. Once they arrived in Louisiana they were crawfish sized XD all of their high tales are so funny. I would love them if I met any of these people in real life
I feel like interviewing and making documentaries about various places in this country is so fullfilling, but also I would be departing from people and feel bittersweet and sad. When peter gets these stories he's talking to folks who are at least fifty years old. With this old man he's at the age of 75. There was a moment where he was like, we have to have a photo together. And Peter quickly diffuses and says he'll have one sent later. I felt like in that moment he wanted to have physical evidence that they spent that day together. Sometimes that's what I need too. I want photos with my mom. I don't want what happened with my grandmother and all of sudden the only good photo of her is one that was taken at my mom's first baby shower. I'm not kidding, when there's a memorial or a family event and they have a board up of family members that we all miss. There is just the one constant photo of her. In my mind she just exists at the age of sixty something because that's the only photo I've ever seen of her. No baby photos, teens, young adult. Just grandma. in the final five minutes they get into the fact that time moves by so quickly that one day you're looking at your next birthday and you're 75 already. Trying to think about one day that happened when you're 50 something and it's like blowing dust. So hard to pin point. I wouldn't say I'm forgetting anything. But ever since I graduated high school and college. These past 8 years have gone in a flash. I remember key moments, but it's like wow. I can't imagine how it actually feels when you're past 70. It's probably like sifting sand. He says he remembers when his dad was still alive and he was getting much older and he was starting to think about what it meant to get close to death. The most profound comment I've heard in a while is that if you're not thinking about death, that means you've spent a lot of time living. Maybe I haven't been truly living these past few years. Since covid, it just hits me that millions of people were lost. That was my flipping a switch moment. Feeling like time is not enough anymore. I shifted away from living. Getting back to that is really hard. Especially when your mental health takes a nose dive. Maybe this next year is actually my year :)
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Post by Captain Ally on Mar 24, 2024 22:48:18 GMT -6
god I hate thinking sometimes. it makes me sad :(
my dad is struggling a little with his diabetes. He had a year to get his this all figured out, however he was in denial drinking sodas/alchohol, and eating whatever foods that he wanted to. a few days ago he was kind of in the danger zone. His ac1 was around 15, and glucose levels about 570. A diabetic coma is near the 600s. He was this close to being in danger. this evening my parents were having a chat about how his brother somehow is still doing okay even though there are days where he drinks and eats nothing until the next morning. While on the other hand his sister dealt with her own health issues, and his other brother has been taking medicine and insulin shots to help with his diabetes for 15 years now. It wasn't that being presented with their health problems scared me. It's that I'll be their age one day but not with my parents still :(
It's just the realization that I'll be having this type of conversation, but in their shoes about my sister and brother. My sister is healthy but I don't know anything about my brother now. I of course deal with hypothyroidism and my high weight, and also anemia issues. Being presented with these thoughts panics me a little bit. Sometimes it's so hard to try and live in the moment and not let my mind wander. I don't know if the day will come when I have the opportunity to have kids, or if I want them to begin with. But two of my cousins now have had fertility issues, a cousin-in-law, and previously my aunt as well (uncle bad influences family). It's just like, having to make big decisions is nearing my horizon soon. If I wait too long like one cousin (she is 38) then my chances are lowered and I might go through the same problems. But right now at 25 I feel like I'm not in the mindset for a family at all. it's seems very scary
but I want a family too :sobs: there is family history that should be passed down. And people like my mom who should meet their grandchildren. It's like I'm at an impasse. Because also what type of world would I be bringing a child into. There is climate change, dangerous people, economic turmoil, hell even covid is a major threat. I have a lot of thinking to do from now on. Which I'm like, fuck. The one thing I actively try to distract myself from.
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Post by Captain Ally on Apr 22, 2024 0:19:51 GMT -6
I'm really good at making myself upset :)
idk so like, my squad wanted to practice. We don't know when the next event happens so they want to get some strats going, or just to be able to work better together. In the group chat my one friend said, oh well I'm busy this weekend, we can do so next weekend. And then I noticed the three of them had sessions planned and they said nothing. In the moment I was sad. And now I'm like, well maybe it was planned in advance and they really did have no extra time ;-;
I have come to know people through them. Like one big name overfisher, and another that is a beginner but is farther than I am in achievments. She struggles when she focuses on score counts, and I think what tends to happen is that they complain and sort of beg for help. Where as I am more stubborn and I don't want to drag people down to my level so I continue playing freelance over and over again. I have noticed that only now it's starting to pay off. I used to think maybe people get carried into good scores. But even getting near 200 is a big feat. it's a lot of work. If I was as bad of a player and teammate as I thought I was then I wouldn't have scores about the 150 range. It takes a lot of hard work. I still struggle to realize that some days.
One person that gets underneath my skin is someone I met through my original squad member (we do not interact anymore). It's almost like he's upset that I choose to play solo salmon run and turf. Or that I love playing with certain people and I'm not at a point where I would drop everything I'm doing to play with him. he's gone on a tirade a few times now complaining that splatfest means jack shit...Why do people play ranked... SR is the only good mode blah blah blah. I try to be nice but it's hard. it just makes me shut down and not want to respond at all. And then he comes back later and is like, puttting on an act almost. I don't get it This happened which is a rare event where I got really pissed off. Yesterday which was Saturday he said, we need a fourth someone is having internet issues please join us. I said I'm eating lunch, but in 20-30 minutes I would be happy to join. Well I rush to eat lunch and then these assholes kept making excuses for why they weren't going to stop to swap teammates. It made me so frustrated. I thought, how dare you waste my time. How fucking dare you think that it's okay to do so. Now I really don't want to play with those three. If they ask for sessions I'm going to refuse, because that type of disrespect is something that doesn't go unnoticed. I don't care about being cut throat. If you're an asshole stay away from me.
to get back to being upset. I just felt like, wow my squad mates were tired of salmon run and yet here they were playing again. Real nice. I need to focus on myself first ugh.
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Post by Captain Ally on Apr 29, 2024 2:03:34 GMT -6
I realize I often have a very skewed view of events :')
like here I am wanting to set aside any anger I felt because it's not that my squad mates didn't want to play with me. Their free time just often doesn't line up within my schedule. this past weekend I played a practice session with them and it was fun like it always is. Then they moved onto minecraft and two of them asked if I'd like to join. Which I did and it was a great joy.
something that happened directly before is that the (absolute fucking) asshole who asked me to join a last minute session last week came out of nowhere and was like, wow since you can't play the last six hours what's going to happen. For context I'm talking about eggstra. It made me so angry because I asked who tf said I couldn't play the last six hours. If anything it's the very last two hours. Who the hell knows if I'm even playing that event as long! (we could pull a 333 score and call it quits) He starts a conversation and then says how it's a "crazy ass demand". He made me sound like a shit player and I was very upset overall becuase I felt as if my friends had gone behind my back to set up other sessions with a different fourth. When he told me this news it was as if he was saying that it was a bombshell. He made me feel like shit that my schedule wasn't going to be completely open. And then makes it seem as if there are hundreds of players ready to take my spot
before I muted him for the day because I didn't want to say something mean he says "woo, hope I didn't create a situation". Now that I've had two days to think it over I feel as if that was his goal all along. If he makes me so upset that I limit the time I play then he can get in with the three of them. He had a falling out with a girl he liked and I'm beginning to think that he wasn't completely a victim. I hate people who are ten years older who stick their nose in your buisiness. It's like, we're all so much younger than you and yet you're hanging around. The worst fucking part is that you would think if he liked splatoon enough he would have been playing since the first game. But no, and he is probably the worst kind of teammate to get.
Half the time when I wonder how much of a trash player I am it's because something always goes wrong when I join him for games. We either go on losing streaks, or the games are barely passed. I hate that. The next time if I do join him at all I'm going to have to set boundries that I will not do vc if he cannot focus up. Again I have ADHD but some people put me to shame. Every time he has a million questions, if he's not wanting advice then he's too focused on a story he's telling or catching up with someone else. I get that the goal to good games is to communicate but he does it too much. it's beginning to be the opposite of having a good time. One of the reasons I love joining my squad more than anyone else is because they're funny and if we make a mistake it's okay to move on. We couldn't become top 5% in the world if we didn't play well together. When I join A that's just no possible.
My gameplan for the weekend of mother's day is to have my stream going, make sure I set discord to do not disturb, and most importantly I will be muting any DMs coming from him while we're actively playing. If I have DMs to answer I'll become distracted. And also I think I'm going to put a warning on my stream that I will not answer messages in a timely manner until there is downtime between games. I'm allowing people to watch but I will not be doing any entertainment
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Post by Captain Ally on Apr 30, 2024 2:39:10 GMT -6
my arm hurted :(
so at my last doctor visit (this past Monday) my doctor mentioned how it would be a good idea to have the HPV vaccine now rather than later because it's still kind of the best time to get it. Today I got the first shot. When the nurse was giving it to me she said it would be a small pinch, and that was true. However I also immediately felt pain run down my arm It's so sore. Not in the way that I can't move my arm. But I feel some pain down to my elbow and sometimes my wrist. Even though I'm not moving it much right now, there's almost like a burning stinging sensation at the point where I got the shot at.
i hope this only lasts until tomorrow. Ngl my arm being sore is one of the reasons I haven't continued to get more covid shots. That and the fact that it knocked me tf out last time. I was so sick lmao
also something else that came out of my doctor visit is that my iron is so low. It's at like a 7.7 whereas a normal level is above 12. The past year I would say I have felt terrible at times. Very lightheaded. If I bend over to pick up something the middle of my forehead hurts a lot. Overall I'm tired and feel weak at times. I started taking iron pills again today. I hope I don't have another bad reaction
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Post by Captain Ally on May 6, 2024 19:15:59 GMT -6
I had a dream that I've been thinking about almost the whole day. I guess I happen to see the same face somewhere becuase this is at least the fifth time I've noticed the same boy appear. He has short dark brown hair, is about the same height as I am. And he's just super nice?
unfortunately I didn't remember everything. But I think the timeframe in the dream was about when I was 17-18 years old. From what I remember it seemed as if he had just asked me out. We spent the entire day together. In this context it was at a mutual friends home. We were chatting basically the entire day. Honestly I don't remember the last time that I ever chatted with someone where it lasted over eight hours. There was just so much chemistry, and that's the part that I feel like constantly thinking about. I'm 25 now, and that's the type of thing that would make me feel sad about not being involved with anyone romantically. Just like, the pure-ness of wanting to chat for as long as possible
something else however brought me back into those days (of being 17-18 yrs old) which is why it felt like I was a high schooler in the dream. I seen a photo of my old friend and her older sister together in this friends home. She seemed so happy. And for some reason it made me feel a little bitter. Like, she is so happy here. Was she ever happy hanging out with me? Why did things fizzle out the way that they did :(
I have a feeling I had this dream because I've been feeling sad since one of my friends is going to be on a hiatus for anywhere between the next two months or four years. It's just kind of a bummer. Once you get to know someone and then boom you're not going to be spending much time together anymore. I think people you get to know from Discord can be friends. So it's like, damn my friend is gonna be unavailable. Will we still be friends even four years from now? Being confronted with that made me feel a little melancholic. The last week we started a new minecraft playthrough. It was me, I, and L. We've all just been chatting for the many hours we play in the game. Eventually a lot of topics came up. Like "I" said that he could only go out with someone who is a gamer themselves. I want to be clear I don't think of those guys as romantic interests. It's because they're near my sisters age (six year gap). So anyways, I have the same preferance too. When I was in high school I feel like all I ever did was hide. I hid that I liked anime, or that I read a lot. I really like cute clothing. And my music taste wasn't the same as my friends. I don't remember a moment where I was a genuine person in front of them. Sometimes I stay up mulling over the fact that maybe this is the reason we never stayed in touch. Did they notice, and give up on trying to get to know me. Was it really a fault of my own? Maybe we werent meant to be friends for life, which kind of hurts
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It was only this past weekend that I even told my mom how close me and my friends were to being the best of the best in the whole world. For context there is this event called Eggstra in salmon run next wave. Basically you work on a scenario code of a match that everyone has equal access too. What makes the difference however is your skill level and how comfortable you are with different techniques and strategies. When I played the first map this event was held on. The difference between a high score and an average middle of the road score was using techniques honed by people who played more of the series than other people did. I was already comfortable with hazard level max, and 999 runs. The problem is finding like minded individuals. I walked away that weekend with my first ever team. We did decent though with a score of 222. The number one team I believe had a score in the 330s Last eggstra however I kept one teammate from my first squad and we were joined by two others who were retired overfishers. Throughout the weekend we analyzed different styles to win waves and walked away with a score of 320. Out of all the teams that ever played the last event it placed us around 12th in the world. We could of had it higher had we focused and played more together. But it was absolutely amazing what we accomplished
I'm really looking forward to this weekend honestly. We played a scenario with no specials and got 107 golden eggs from goldie seeking which was one egg off from the world record on the map. I feel really hopeful that we can do well. I think our first goal will be 300-->then 333-->and finally pushing the score as high as we possibly can. My one friend "I" thinks if we played three of the waves perfectly, and got at least 130 eggs during goldie seeking that it could very well get us a 390 score. It is wishful thinking however because that would mean we did 21 + 130 + 66 + 81 + 96. If you know salmon run, then you know there are so many factors as to how hard or easy it is to make this happen. Wave 5 is looking to be the toughest yet with five flyfish spawns on top of keeping track of lurable bosses. I can't wait, no matter how we do, it will be fun. And I'm happy I got the chance to meet and play with them :sob:
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Post by Captain Ally on May 28, 2024 16:17:53 GMT -6
so we bombed the last eggstra event.
there were a lot of lessons learned. Such as don't keep pushing when everyone should obviously take a break. And also we should examine the waves and come up with some different kind of strategy that could work. It was fun on Friday because no pressure, but then we realized no one had time to play on Sunday because it was mother's day. So as a team we had less than twelve hours to push for a high score. I think everyone can imagine what went wrong. We did really well with the goldie seeking wave. Always between 105 to 120. Which was a few steps ahead of all the other teams. But when it came to wave 3 that was our gatekeep. I think that when we got stuck for four hours we should have taken a longer break than 40 minutes. And at that point we should have also shuffled weapons around. I didn't realize my one friend wasn't having that much fun, and he said afterwards that a major reason was playing the blaster. I was being flexible before the event and chose slochine because it seemed like my three other friends weren't interested in it. Maybe he wouldn't have minded playing slosher. I liked junior, blaster, and slosher except for the hydra splatling.
Something else that happend because we kept bombing wave 3. Bombing in this case meaning that we never consistently got x2 quota. We didn't get actual practice with waves 4 and 5. When we did get double quota for wave 3, our strats for 4 and 5 kept changing because we realized something too late. I don't know why but the weapons and wave 3 contributed to us only pulling a 317 which was 16 off from our original goal.
What I realized was different from Marooner's Bay in comparison to Jamin' Salmon Junction was that a) we didn't play Friday together. That was off the table last time. I felt like the fact that all four of us had different experiences with our teams or freelance meant that going into squadding up together after provided us with different ideas of how to play the waves differently. For me I played with someone I had no contact with on my friend's list and I seen some things that maybe I wouldn't have noticed otherwise. Another point I want to make is that b) maybe the weapons really did affect our enjoyment. If that's the case, next time we get ultra stuck like that then we need to switch weapons. c) I think rather than approaching the waves as needing to get it down in one go. We should play through a messed up game anyways. It might be a waste of time, but in the case of eggstra if your hazard is lowered by 20% one wave then you can keep it that way instead of losing 60% total hazard from the next two or three waves. In total that would only amount to 20 golden eggs lost. That's assuming you can play each wave as perfect as possible.
I don't want to be mean but at least three of us are not at a level where we could consider ourselves playing as the best of the best. We're not a brian, leia, reyko, gungee, or ako. We consisted of baby overfisher, retired overfisher, current top 5% overfisher, and half x rank player/half overfisher. Not saying it's impossible. But the cards were stacked against us. I think on a possible bonerattle rotation for eggstra work we could have a much better time together. Given the fact that I think the devs would be much more lenient with weapons. Or maybe we would be happier with the provided weapons next time
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Post by Captain Ally on Jun 3, 2024 22:24:38 GMT -6
My brother married his wife in the last two years but went no contact with my family. Over this past weekend we tried to kind of surprise them and talk things out. What actually happened was that it was one big mess. When she opened the door she just let forth all of her anger and hatred. I've never met someone who holds onto things from their childhood, and even events from two years ago. I'm not sure how my brother actually felt, but he was angry Friday night. He obviously was curious about us because even though we weren't let into "her" house. He came to meet us for breakfast. Over the last nine years I think he's changed for the worst. Whether it's because she's holding something over his head, or what. He's not the same person all the time, but bits and pieces of who he was comes out occasionally.
He's kind of sick. And I just can't believe he lets her act so disrespectfully to his own mother like this. If I was a confrontational person I would have probably told her to shut the fuck up, and shove the house and marriage up her ass. But I can think about it all I want. Once again, it's not like I would be able to tell her this in person any time soon. I think the two of them stress each other out. So it's only a given if one or both of them have some type of condition they've developed. At 27 years old pre diabetes seems kind of crazy. But maybe not that crazy in actuality.
My dad said something that set him over the edge. or maybe it was his wife, that told him it was "wrong" what my dad did was trying to tell her anxiety shouldn't rule her life. Which, I admit is kind of ignorant. It does affect people in different ways. But he was right that my mom deserved an apology from the two of them two years ago. And certainly right now she deserves an apology. They have a lot to make up for. But also I think my parents as well. My brother needs to understand it wasn't easy for our family 10-15 years ago. So if he was so unhappy, he left at probably the worst time. Because now I imagine how hard it would be to accept that my dad is doing somewhat better. And the family is in a better position.
It just pisses me off though that like, we took a 6.5 hour drive. And then he doesn't want to give us anymore time so basically we had no other choice but to turn around home. After talking about it as a family we're more and more convinced that either my brother is being abused, or there's some reason he's stuck. He might say it's his choice where he lives, but I can't imagine you're okay living in a crime filled area such as the place he's in. When we booked a hotel it was very telling just how bad things are. Even in the town, the roads are unkept, stores are closed. There aren't many food places. They have to drive further in order to get their groceries. it wasn't good.
Friday was a nightmare. however my weekend turned around when me and my mom talked to my aunt and uncle and we made plans to visit them at their summer home. It was just so needed. The different perspectives, and the quiet time made such a big difference. I cried myself to bed on Friday. But the last two nights were so rewarding. I went to bed early because I enjoyed the weekend to it's fullest. They live somewhere where other retirees enjoy a simple life kind of in a country ish area. There are long stretches of roads lined with farm fields. Town is about 40 minutes away. It's deer country pretty much. You gotta watch out, but not so much because for the most part its pretty chill. We did two nights with a bonfire. Had margaritas. Enjoyed activites on Sunday in town. Other than that we hung out on their property which was about 4 acres big. I still can't believe how calm and serene it is. They could get wolf, coyote, deer, or beer sightings. But nothing actually shows up. The ground squirrels pretty much ruled the open parts of the yard around their house. I can't say how much I loved it. It was nice. I had a great time after I was upset trying to visit my brother.
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Post by Captain Ally on Jun 29, 2024 2:46:44 GMT -6
one of my friends opened up to me in a huge way. I didn't expect it.
I want to say I had a hard time at parts of my life. But truly I've never been at a point where I felt like to take my own life was the only option. I'm glad they're here. That we're all still here actually.
It made me think back on my highschool self. Almost ten years ago I caused so much stress and heart break. Being a dumb teenager was just who I was for a while. I didn't act up for no reason however. One of my first online friends was always such a wishy washy person. One second it was like i was the only person they needed to talk to. However a few seconds later they could be talking to someone else and insulting me. I always felt insecure and confused. That was at a point in my life where things were starting to change rapidly. My friends moved away, or changed and we grew a part. I had a really hard time coping. When I was a freshman I had never felt so lonely before. one of my best friends lost his sister but I didn't find out until five years later. And another moved away and that was it. In my town there were also two high schools (more if you count catholic schools), depending on the street or side of town you lived in, people were separated. When I was online with no supervision that was when I got involved with a pokemon website that had a chat room. The culture was fun. It was like a giant friend group, there were the key members that were between 10 and 20 people at any given point. Who were all close by the way. And then you had newbies which was me for a while, and people who rarely poked their heads in to say hello. I think I grew an unhealthy attachment to that website. Finding that place just so happened to coincide with my life rapidly changing, and so I clung onto it and grew restless if I wasn't logged in chatting.
In my dramatics I left the website for the first time the following summer after my freshman year. I don't know why but after the way my so called friend acted, and with my inability to open up to people. I left saying how no one would care anyways. It was a bad move. I did in fact hurt a few people. When I came back, it was a year later. And then I left in a fit of anger the second time. after my sophomore year. Once again, I was acting like a brat and an idiot. It wasn't nice of me. I've learned from that a lot actually. As an adult and a person who came out on the other end of those dramatics. When conflicts rise up, I really try to think about them and talk to others. I think if I hadn't had such poor communication, I would still have my old friends. A part of me is sad it never worked out with my wishy washy ex friend. But maybe it was for the better.
idk. I just haven't really had it that bad. There are moments that hurt me a lot. But that's it. I'm hurt, and it's better to just move on.
Coming back to this. There was also a point in my life where I felt like I couldn't talk to my mom. We would chat, but I mean on a deeper level. I felt like she would disaprove and not help me. But I was incorrect for thinking that way. She's told me and my sister dozens of times in the last two years how much we mean to her. We were her light and joy when she had a hard time. When I was first sick with hypothyroidism it also coincided with how I felt incredibly homesick. I kept myself up at night, and I would even forgo sleep entirely to make sure I made it on time to my finals. Because a major issue with a slow thyroid is that you get exhausted much quicker than other people. Even someone who could be a carbon copy of you. You're not gonna make it through a trip to the store, or any activity. For some reason I felt that telling my mom there was something wrong was gonna be an issue. it wasn't. She was there for me when I struggled.
Another example of her overwhelming support is that even though I didn't give her the entire story. When I first had a falling out with my friend on Twitch. It affected me deeply. I placed a lot of trust in him. And all he did was think like all the other misognynistic men in the world. It was him first before me. He dragged people into it like two streamers, and three mutual friends. I felt embarassed to even log into twitch for a while. She was there for me. Which is more important than anything else in the world.
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Post by Captain Ally on Jul 28, 2024 15:37:56 GMT -6
came back from watching twisters this morning and it's stuck with me the entire day. I think i'll think about it for the rest of my life
I really appreciate honest movies. ones that contain good characters, growth, and inspiration. it's so good
The director lee seems like such an awesome person to have a conversation with. When I watched his interview about where his inspiration for the movie came from, he talked about how he ended up drawing from so many other movies, and moments in cinematic history. I was going into the theater expecting some cheap remake of a beloved cult classic and I left in awe. The movie Twisters carved it's own space, and it set itself apart from the original movie Twister. It's not a remake, nor is it so much of a sequel. It reminds of us Twister, but the character are in their own, and so is their story. Take for example the tension between Tyler and Kate. In Twister Jo and Bill are a divorced couple that have a common interest. They're pulled apart and then drawn back to each other by the time the conclusion rolls around. While Tyler and Kate have never met before the events of Twisters, they follow some sort of a romantic path. Kate needs to heal from her trauma five years prior, and Tyler exists as a system to remind her of her child like wonder, and the reason she got into storm chasing to begin with. Near the end of the movie she really gets back into her groove. And it's beautiful. We could of had a major storyline where the obvious conclusion is that they are in a defined relationship, however it was better that it didn't happen. I respect that decision a lot.
I think the fact that most of the vfx shots were about the twisters is a huge bonus for this movie. Practical effects and on scene shooting is just so good. The way the wind is whipping through the actors, and influecning all of the camera shots was so good. After watching the director's interview it was amusing how he mentioned that Patrick Sullivan who worked on the Wakita scene in Twister, thought about that scene for over 27 years. In Twisters, the disaster after Kate's first return to storm chasing really hits you hard. Sullivan sat on how he wanted to make that actually look and when he got another chance it was so emotional, and was a true disaster scene. Not like the original Wakita scene was bad. But he built on that and really delivered.
As a music lover the soundtrack to the film is an absolute masterpiece. It's like the perfect balance between needing hard hitting tracks and keeping it fun. Outside of the soundtrack the way the sounds for the tornadoes were created was really cool. According to Lee there were a few animal sounds they used such as wolves, seals, and horses. After slowing down and splicing the sounds it gives just enough of character to the storms themselves. Not that it's putting them more in the forefront than they already are. But it's a good balance of keeping the audience focused on different elements. For example the moments where Kate struggles between her past and present, and the viewers are allowed to sit with her just enough to then be reminded that the storms are still blazing in the background. its really cool. Walking away from the movie my favorite scenes were not only between tyler and kate (I love romantic tension like that). BUT i feel so much love for when kate has her moments on screen where its just her and the weather, and there is this sort of soft instrumental track that plays to fill that space. She's returning to her roots of storm chasing and tapping into her own special gift. I felt that those moments were truly the most beautiful of the movie. It's a girl and her childhood passion. The thing that got her into what she's doing.
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Post by Captain Ally on Aug 8, 2024 16:43:59 GMT -6
I don't necessarily want to complain, but I feel confused about my friend ship with one person. I have a feeling I get conflicted because our personalities are the opposite of each other. He is about the most social butterfly a person can be. and me? not so much.
he started a new minecraft server for everyone ( but especially for the three of us) to join. And even before this he sends messages randomly like, I value being friends with you. Or, it's a shame you're not as available as everyone else to play sessions... two nights ago, he was like while I have you here, honestly I wish we hung out more. I know I read too far into things, but like, that is so fucking easy to get a different idea from I wasn;t sure how to answer, and a few messages later he's tells me, I appreciate the thought of you trying to be around more, but don't worry, I understand you have your other friends. So while I can misread the other message, then this one sets a boundary.
another example, I like shin megami tensei. And we were joking around with our other friend (he was apart of the group I talked of earlier) who is a big fan of pokemon that he should play the hardcore version of pokemon some time lol later that night he sends a message that said so when are you coming over so we can play this and he linked to a board game version of the game. It caught me off guard so much. Are people out here saying things casually like this??? omg
idk these are just some of my observations. It's probably because im such a weirdo that i feel confused so much. in my mind, I honestly am like, i hope this is just his way of awkwardly trying to continue being friends. For context, he's gonna drop splatoon 3 after september, so we won't be playing that together anymore. That's what I really want at least. I want to continue being friends with all of them, especially because of our hodge podge team we created. I think it would break my heart if I'm not invited to play games so much if he wasn't interested in a friend ship. I would have no friends online again then.
Like, I don't want to come off as arrogant. I know I have a bad personality sometimes. But I really wouldn't be able to handle someone trying to tell me they have romantic feelings again. Deep down it would hurt a lot. It would be especially painful because they're someone I consider as being fun and nice. That takes a lot for me to say since I feel like all I attract are genuinely strange people.
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Post by Captain Ally on Sept 9, 2024 18:36:10 GMT -6
some drama came back full circle yesterday. so what happened is that my teammate was asking if we should play with one person who asked to briefly join our session. I said, I don't mind I'm leaving the decision to you. She goes, "okay well im telling him that we're full right now." okay great, you've made a decision, nice. then our other teammate says, I can't believe you were even deliberating about playing with him again. He had a nasty discord status. I was a little invested because what do you mean man. I guess he cut this kid off because of whatever this message said. Well, then she says, look I forgave everyone. Those who apologized, and the people who have yet to do so. He has reached out apologized to me, so I have no issues with him.
I think my interpretation is probably incorrect. But the way she said it was like, im waiting on someone else to apologize. I thought she meant me when I first read the message. Which I took no offense to in the moment. But after thinking about it I almost feel like, you better not be trying to imply you deserve an apology from me. Because if that's the case she has some skeletons in her closet she has yet to address... I didn't talk about everything but this is the person who's stance was that she "doesn't mix teams". What she meant was that if she plays with one group, she doesn't introduce those players to other people she plays with. Especially if they never previously met. There was this event she was on vacation for, so since the four of us who teamed up for the previous event did really good together, we already went ahead and scheduled to play it only with each other. it came out through a petty person that she was really going through some emotions because we left her out of scheduling. What I took offense to was that she was like, I can't believe c, r, and a aren't going to play with me. its like our friend b didn't exist to her when she was angry. Im like, you either get the four of us, or no one at all. AND you are not fucking entitled to play with us. You have the time, or not. In her case, she neither had availability or the skills to join partway with us.
And what I mean by skeletons is ther when she was upset she also said some other shit. I could put her on the spot if I really felt like it. But even typing this out is giving me such a huge ick. I don't want to do that, just like I don't want to assume she thinks im at any fault.
That fucking asshole she didn't have the balls to cut off is the one at fault for everything. I should not have taken his side, true. But they both were dishonest and not being adults about the entire situation. So my only opinion about her is that maybe sometimes she lives for the drama. Everything that has gone down over the past year is because these little situations blew up bigger than they should have. He never took advice, and Ive never really wanted to talk with b one on one before. i would prefer to avoid them until the end of time but I just can't do that.
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Post by Captain Ally on Sept 17, 2024 0:19:00 GMT -6
I wanted to talk about the splatoon series. While I wasn't always entirely happy with splatoon 3 because I set my expectations up pretty high. I had a wonderfully fun two years through all the people I met, and the decisions I made. I think even as a trilogy it was such a fun ride. We started with splatoon as the newest IP that debuted on a console that was already failing before it got a chance to start running. And it made really big waves despite that. Then Splatoon 2 releases and it becomes a console seller as much as mario or the legend of zelda. During 2 they made some really big decisions such as a rewriting what a story told through splatoon could be. Octo Expansion remains one of my most favorite DLCs so far. It had style, an emotionally captivating story, and some really daring mechanics. I'm glad with how much it influenced splatoon 3. When Splatoon 3 released it had a very rocky start since it came off the back of a worldwide pandemic. None of us knew exactly what that meant for the game, but I think despite such a hard hurdle, it did the best it could. Splatoon 3 really came into it's own after the release of Side Order. That's the part that makes me feel bittersweet actually. With the last few waves of updates the changes felt so natural and I thought, this is what the game after splatoon 2 should look like. With the closure of the grand festival, looking back on my time with the game. I didn't dislike it. As a fan you just want what's right for something you love.
I could create an essay of all my issues with the game, but I'll just talk about the things that I appreciate the most instead. First of all. Salmon Run which could have stayed as a funky extra mode really blossomed into something proper, and even a solid staple of the series. During it's original run I remember always thinking, this needs just a little bit more content...If only they released just one more map :( When 3 had all of it's trailers I was super glad to see not only did they give it content, they had some really amazing ideas planned out. I would never have imagined we would get something like Big Run, and Eggstra Work on top of that. It was just really nice to get back into it. I've spent the last two years trying to get to a place where I felt like I was finally a great player. I just kind of liked the challenge of it. I missed that during splatoon 2 since at the end of the content cycle there was no longer a spark and I took a temporary retirement. I'm talking as if I didn't accomplish anything amazing. But I did so much during my time with this game. I got rank 999 on all of the maps with freelance teammates I could before they introduced map badges. And I still did that with Jammin' Salmon Junction and Bonerattle Arena. Then during Eggstra works I started with such minimal knowledge of how the game works at the first event, and became the player who could push their score pretty high during this last run of it. My team managed to get a score that was on par with some of the best players in this game. We were people that maybe not many others really knew. But, we learned and overcame. And during Marooner's Bay Eggstra Work we spent the time and got a 320! We did something really exceptional together. Unfortunately the next two events afterwards really knocked us dowm and our team name was born from such hard moments. Wav3 isn't just some interesting name, actually it means Wave 3 and it's directly because of the five waves that happen during Eggstra Works. For some reason we either get stuck during that wave, or during a regular game we're able to push a score pretty high during the last wave. Wav3 also represents being able to do well with limited time XD
Something else I appreciate a lot about this game is that the devs created two new styles of movements. Before you either swim forwards, backwards, to the side, or jump in the air. Return to spatoon 2 and you realize how limiting that style of gameplay actually is. It's not bad, it's just limited.
--i'll come back to this, im tired lol
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Post by Captain Ally on Sept 22, 2024 0:04:59 GMT -6
I have to save this iconic color palette #E16F7C #E47A68 #E78553 #EA903E #EC9A29 #E2B46E #D7CEB2
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